I’m looking at the default title here at wordpress – hello world – and it strikes me as particularly appropriate.
Back in the day, when you wrote your first program in any particular computer language, the program displayed that message on the screen. It was a sign of life. It told you your program was alive and working. That’s just how I feel. Alive. Working.
It also works in another sense. A sort of, “HERE I AM” sense. It’s the thing you do when you shout from the tippy top of the mountain peak you just climbed. You yell out, announcing your own existence. That’s what I intend for this blog. A shout out, anonymous but honest, a ‘hello world’ of my own.
The honest part is important. I want to keep a record I can visit when the now me is faded into the past and the future me doesn’t recall what now me knows. I know this happens because I’m 30. And the thirty me doesn’t remember what the twenty me knew. All my memories are skewed by what I know and care about now. I don’t trust them. I wish I had a diary from back then, and further back, and back…
So, now I have a diary/travelogue. I intend to keep it honest. Why lie to future me? Future me should at least remember this much about now me. That I was honest.
Tomorrow I leave this place, this town, this life in the apartment. And find a different life. And I’ll write when I can, what I can.